anybody ever wondered wat is shmiley?instead of smiley or smelly?haha.. ever ever ever??
its actually not original..i took it from this chicken soup for the soul book..forgotten which one cuz i read so bloddy many of them after i practically gleaned all the books in the ij library last time..haha...
oh well there's of course a story behind it...

"My grandparents were married for over half a century, and played their own special game from the time they had met each other. The goal of their game was to write the word "shmiley" in a surprise place for the other to find. They took turns leaving "shmiley" around the house, and as soon as one of them discovered it, it was their turn to hide it once more.
They dragged "shmiley" with their fingers through the sugar and flour containers to await whoever was preparing the next meal. They smeared it in the dew on the windows overlooking the patio where my grandma always fed us warm, homemade pudding with blue food coloring. "Shmiley" was written in the steam left on the mirror after a hot shower, where it would reappear bath after bath. At one point, my grandmother even unrolled an entire roll of toilet paper to leave "shmiley" on the very last sheet.
There was no end to the places "shmiley" would pop up. Little notes with "shmiley" scribbled hurriedly were found on dashboards and car seats, or taped to steering wheels. The notes were stuffed inside shoes and left under pillows. "Shmiley" was written in the dust upon the mantel and traced in the ashes of the fireplace. This mysterious word was as much a part of my grandparents' house as the furniture.
It took me a long time before I was able to fully appreciate my grandparents' game. Skepticism has kept me from believing in true love - one that is pure and enduring. However, I never doubted my grandparents' relationship. They had love down pat. It was more than their flirtatious little games; it was a way of life. Their relationship was based on a devotion and passionate affection which not everyone is lucky experience.
Grandma and Grandpa held hands every chance they could. They stole kisses as they bumped into each other in their tiny kitchen. They finished each other's sentences and shared the daily crossword puzzle and word jumble. My grandma whispered to me about how cute my grandpa was, how handsome an old he had grown to be. She claimed that she really knew "how to pick 'em." Before every meal they bowed their heads and gave thanks, marveling at their blessings: a wonderful family, good fortune, and each other.
But there was a dark cloud in my grandparents' life: my grandmother had breast cancer. The disease had first appeared ten years earlier. As always, Grandpa was with her every step of the way. He comforted her in their yellow room, painted that way so that she could always be surrounded by sunshine, even when she was too sick to go outside.
Now the cancer was again attacking her body. With the help of a cane and my grandfather's steady hand, they went to church every morning.
But my grandmother grew steadily weaker until, finally, she could not leave the house anymore. For a while, Grandpa would go to church alone, praying to God to watch over his wife. Then one day, what we all dreaded finally happened. Grandma was gone.
"Shmiley." It was scrawled in yellow on the pink ribbons of my grandmother's funeral bouquet. As the crowd thinned and the last mourners turned to leave, my aunts, uncles, cousins and other family members came forward and gathered around Grandma one last time. Grandpa stepped up to my grandmother's casket and, taking a shaky breath, he began to sing to her. Through his tears and grief, the song came, a deep and throaty lullaby.
Shaking with my own sorrow, I will never forget that moment. For I knew that, although I couldn't begin to fathom the depth of their love, I had been privileged to witness its unmatched beauty.
S-h-m-i-l-e-y: See How Much I LovE You. "

now you guys know..and btw, i combed site after sites to look for the story..so exhausting...but it's still a wonderful story is it not?maybe there is hope afterall...

cousin's wedding over..so happy.. a lot of things were happening on the 25th..first and most important, my cousin's wedding, then i know mun, chii and winnie are going back to singapore on that day. and for so many years, i kept forgetting, so James, if you're reading this, happy belated birthday..haha...
anyway, this morning, my auntie and family left for perth..this really signals a close to one phase of my life.. cuz i won't be able to see even only Kelly anymore..those times when i had to go over her to babysat her..even when carol told me i was mothering her..and Crystal, so cute and angelic..although irritatin at times but oh so cute and sweet..and her never relenting hugs and wet kisses*wipes cheeks*..haha and the little rascal Russell..just giggles..and i love working around him to get him to do things my way..hahah..(sounds so evil..hahah)..oh well...i'm being oxymoronic..just like when they're there you can't wait to get away but when they leave, you want them ther...so ya..annoyance...contradiction..i hate being this way...
oh well, wat will a new day bring to me, my plans for ahead..start fundraising so that i can go for the expedition.. me only going for the last two phases so tt i can go get my results and have some time for interviews and stuff.. current ones will be getting my driver's license, sign up for yoga lessons, and go rock climbing...haha... at least i managed to find other ppl who are interested and not only eric since he going back to s'pore soon..oh well....now this feels like a new year..
time to settle down now..me not going anywhere soon so i better get down to it..certainty....banish all uncertainty and see the light..hahah

"...watching over as if it were a portrait on a great banner, rippling gently against a cerulean sky. his eyes were even bluer than that celestial backdrop."

"Adam disobeyed and ate the appled, gobbled up the fruit of knowledge, so God decided to let him know all sorts of things, both light and dark. Adam's children learnt to hunt, farm, thwart the winter and cook their food with fire, make tools, and build shelters. And God, wanted to give them a well-rounded education, let them learn, oh, maybe a million ways to suffer and die. He encouraged them to learn language, reading and writing, biology, chemistry, physics, the secrets of the genetic code. And He taught them the exquisite horrors of brain tumours, muscular dystrophy, bubonic plague, cancer run amok in their bodies. You wanted knowledge, God was happy to oblige, He was an enthusiastic teacher, a demon for knowledge, piling it on in such weight and exotic detail that sometimes you feels you were going to be crushed under it." -----Cold Fire by Dean Koontz

more and more alterations to my blog...speaks volumes about wat extreme boredom can do to you..
but not for these few days..cuz me FINALLY learning to drive and got my cousin's wedding and to entertain my numerous cousins..haha and the babies..and to be social escorts to my mother,my auntie,my cousin..or whoever who needs company..i think i'd better charge..haha and for all the typing work i'm doing for my sister too!!haha..oh well...

saying no. 1:
only God and Hitchcock knows..hmm who is Hitchcock?is he some guy like Nostradamus?how did tt came abt?

saying no. 2:
you can come up with the 1st possibility and e 2nd but u'll never can come up with a 3rd.it's called suspense..haha nothing to say abt this..i just like it..

both of those i got from the movie big shot's funeral..it's super hilarious..and yet it is also rather philo..i think yi jian will get a laugh out of it...and the philo is like those kinda cheap arthouse production type..where all their links are everywhere..but its not la of course..please it stars rosamund kwan le..and she's so pretty...but really, the movie is quite good..but the beijing accent is terrible..not like my chinese very good now also la..then add their accent..i can barely understand wat's being said..

anw,heard of rapunzel?anybody with a typical childhood would have..but i'm not discriminating anybody...not even those tt heard it but not in their childhod...ok starting to not make sense alr...now we know why my gp gone haywire..anyway..wat i'm trying to say is tt this rapunzel here is similarly trapped in her sky high tower but she unfortunately, has no long hair tt can double as rope nor does she has any prince charming coming her way..so sad right?haha

something i picked up from my tvb drama series..hee...she was explaining to her dad why she's getting a divorce.."a woman's skin when she's in her 20s and in her 30s are vastly different..and so the lotion tt she uses in her 20s may have been perfect, but now tt she's reached her 30's it doesn't work anymore.and so she must throw it away before her skin becomes all wrinkled and dry and then only she complains that her lotion doesn't suit her skin.."bascially throw it away before she becomes wrinkly and dry..and i just think it's quite an interesting analogy..haha i mean how many ppl can think of such inovative ways to say such a thing?haha but then i think sooner os later she's gonna realise tt her current lotion is multi purpose and can last her all her life..

Heroes are people who rise to the occasion and slip quietly away. - Tom Brokan

ok..blogging is the activity to do when i'm bored..so ya..dun complain..haha..
i watched this hk drama series last night..then its like sometimes the things they say are poetic in a way..
they were watching the birth(but i thinkits actually death) of a star..then e girl was supposed to meet her long time crush to watch it together..so she was there with this other guy who has a crush on her..then when he found out tt her crush wasn't coming(cuz she and him met up and she felt like nothing alr)..then she said tt it's like the birth of the star..the light tt we see are light emitted millions and billions or years ago..and now,right at this very moment, the star is alr not in existence..and she said it's like how she and her crush are..tt she has been seeing the light and dint realise tt there is actually nothing behind it anymore..
and ya i guess i can say tt we are easily blinded and disillusioned by wat we see but we dont think about wats behind it all..and we seldom use your heart to feel and reach out..and we will realise tt actually there are a lot of ppl out ther who cares..
see..i did say i think way too much..
oh well back to the story..then the guy who is with her(got crush on her tt one) say tt mb u should take it like an omen to start a new life again..just like the borth of the star..and the girl said..look at the moon..from this distance its so huge and round and beautiful..but if u peer at it through the telescope,u'll see that it's actually just a rock with lots of pock marks on it surface...and so sometimes its better to keep things at a distance and just stay tt way..and the poor guy is shi lian alr..haha
oh well enough crapping for today.

heh i just realised how much i love to stare...stare into space aka stoning..or just to make it sound better,"meditating"..haha politically correct term..staring at the skies..have you ever realised how beautiful it is?the night sky or just looking out into the horizon..its simply breath taking.. the wonderful blend of colours..u know wat?i think that's wat i miss most..the times when i can just look up or out of my window and see the night sky, or the perfectly round moon shining or watch the occasional planes fly by..or watch the sun set or rise..its the colours..definitely the colours..it's my wine..i can get drunk init..only sad thing is tt i dun have a camera or good enough camera..haha i will like start a photo diary or something..just to record each day's passing..the skies and stuff..hmm i really would like that..those who doesnt understand ask me wat's so nice about it whenever i ask them to look at the shade of blue or the layout of the clouds..the different types of clouds..thay joked "havn't you seen the sky before?"..that's is not true..haha in fact i look at it every single day..and yet it still changes everyday..its full of surprises..even a cloudy night is special...i will never get tired os staring into the sky...
satring lets my mind wander..i think i think too much..but i love the peace and quiet..i think of all nonsensical stuff..hmm i guess now u guys know where the crappy stuff come from..ya i definitely think too much crap..i think about how things may have been..i think about how i should have handled that situation better or how i shouold have stood up for myself...i think that if i weren't to procrastinate,something may hav come out of it..i think lots of stuff..i think about how we used to tease each other and how the mudmud always gets teased..she is not my mudmud btw..she is my amah's mud mud..which will make her my greatgrandmudmud!!haha oh well..there goes the missing part..i think about wat will happen if i really go back and find a job..i think about the exp..i think about wat i can do for fundrraising, i think about how to help my sister win her loreal thingy thingy...(but really,how do you make a wordy pp slide more intersting when the content is sooooo bloody boring???totally beats me..)i think about the ocean and the valley and the other valley or ocean(undecided?)i think abt whether u want laut atau gunung.saya tau kau mahu gunung tapi kamu saja boleh dapat laut..at least from me..sebab saya tahu ada lagi satu gunung..i think about wat will happen, wat had happened, and why it happened, why it CAN'T happen...think about it....
oh well...now enough thinking,i have some complaining to do...
firstly,i dun understand why am i to blame for somebody else's lack of dicipline,self-accountability and responsibility?if the link is how you put it,then you are to be blamed too..really,everybody ought to be blamed...it's not my fault that tt he lacks..(too lazy to repeat.refer to e above.)...and he is not young anymore..do not treat him like he's still five!!he has enough brains to figure out wat he wants..although i do think he still think he is 5 instead of lima belas..so gth...and wth..do not even get me started on him..it's totally beyond his capacity to understd..
now about another person...i dun understd y he makes such a big fuss out of nothing..i am starting to feel like im chained..i mean its just a harmless activity..and i dun understd y he just would let me go..not tt i can get hurt or anything..nor can i...ugh..i dun even wanna think about it..so ya enough complaining for the day..

u guys remember very long time ago i had this obsession with adverts?haha now's an addition to my nike ads..

THE POWER OF AFTER
So this is how superheroes feel,
Bam!!
Everything feels so jump-overable,
Cartoon gleams shine off you.
You feel like you're carried on the shoulders of an adoring crowd,
Children follow, wearing t'shirts with iron-on pictures of you emblazoned on them,
You have that sporty nickname you've always wanted.
You're mighty mighty.
You are nikebeautiful.

so ya..i got this from mun's mag..i think i got it on the 17/11..haha thank god for my diary which is grieving from my lack of attention...bleah...

i'm bored!!!haha i know i said i'm too lazy to be bored so soon...but really,i'm bored alr..and today is only the first day that i officially have nothing to do..(not really true cuz i still have two very urgent but not so important apps to do)..haha so how did i spend my day?i sleep...i sleep and sleep and sleep..u won't believe how much i sleep..mb huong can but tt's beside e point..haha i woke up late,had breakfast watch some tv then got nothing left to do so i went back to sleep..cuz i was tired yesterday la..was awake for 20 hrs even aft rigorous exercise early in the morning..ok so ya then i woke up for lunch, watch vcd,then some tv then nothing to do again so i went to lie down for awhile..haha of course i dozed off la..haha then hmm just woke up..so ya how much of sleep is that?haha i already feel myself rotting away..haha

lalala~ unless you've been thru,u'll never know how therapeutic pushin the button that says submit is..haha i suddenly feel lifted from my depressionjust like that..lalala~haha i'm so happy now..yay!!!
muakz!! love the world!!!

today's the day tt my brain's been the most active..imagine discovering tt its not 850 words tt ur essay is limited to but 850 CHARACTERS!!that was the ultimate test to my summary skills(which is not very good by the way..)so i ended up literally rewriting my essays!!no it's not called essays anymore..but personal statements..for my tired hands' sake i shall shorten it to ps..
i have squeezed so much of my brain juice to give them a concise and interesting one-paragraph(i hope) that my brains so dry i'm having a headache..imagine all my crap reserved energy used up!!(the thought can't even be formed completely!!)that's how terrifyingly bad the situation is..
now all i have to say is:i miss you guys out there!!all of u..really!!haha i missed our pigging out sessions in mun's room,the laughing sessions in my room during the exams period tt ppl have to sms u to tell us to shut up..i miss the noise, the laughter, even the tickles..and hitting pig of course and culik-ing dog fr u, and crowding ard ur laptop to fight like kids just to beat huong's minesweeper score.i miss going downstairs to the disgusting tv room(i dun miss the disgusting part just the journey down).i miss being able to go to the pathetic playground just because i have nothing to do..i miss my phone..i even miss huong's our-future-is-in-your-hands philosophy or other crap stuff she can come up with..i miss talking to so many ppl cuz nowadays all the ppl i see are either my family or strangers that will hopefully turn out to be my frens..i miss those carefree but not stress free days..i miss talking to my frens face to face cuz now i can only talk to them online..i miss not being able to be there to share all the mundane details of your day..from the i got caught in the rain to freaky phone calls from strangers who ask you "hello mei mei. ni hao ma?"(ok act tt was my incident but i stil miss sharing it with you!)..ok the one tt's yours is the freaky guy who tried to follow u back to the hostel(cycled past u,turned ard and said"u are so cute!!"haha tt's e ultimate!!)..ok la i admit it la..i miss singapore la..just a little bit..but it's cuz of the ppl not the place!!haha okla..i only miss the public transport..(but now i have two"drivers"..hehe my sisters ie..)
but then again i cant go back to how it was..even if i go back to the place,the guys will be in ns,the scholars are home..so it's like bits and pieces of my life are now all around the globe!!wow wat an amzing theory..hmm so theoretically i'm also all ard the world la..haha enough crap..and then winnie back in jakarta, some working..some too engrossed in anime to even visit this blog, some going to australia alr..some in vietnam (hint!!!!!), oh well ya..i guess u know wat i'm trying to say..even if u dun,it doesn't matter cuz i also dunno wat i'm saying..(told u i'm having a headache now).
oh well i guess wat i'm trying to say is tt:i'll be getting on with my life now..it's time to let go...like cindy said years ago:do not hold the sands of time too tightly, for they will all slip thru your fingers.but hold it lightly and they will stay there.so ya..muakz ppl..i'll miss ya always..

yoohoo!!!i'm on!!haha so much for calling for help just now..i managed to make the entries appear without any help*pats myself on the back*..*grins*..this is a great achievement for a computer idiot like me..haha..
oh well i'll be officially out of my depression when i hand up the applications day after tmr..but its so fast and i still have so much to do..but i can't help but wanna blog everyday cuz it's so much easier than thinking of wat to write in their supposed short answers..then i have to cram info abt their uni for them just so tt they'll be impressed..i mean how fake is tt?and by now, thanks to the countless essays i wrote,i am very good at exaggerating alr..you say tt its just cuz we seldom pen down these stuff so when we actually do it sounds exaggerated but it's actually not?i dunno whether you are trying to soothe me a little but i still think its exaggeration...
haiz now everybody going to work or learning driving alr...and perp got a really well paying job..it's like even better than relief teaching and works less hours..haha and her job is so slack tt i chat with her every morning while she dl songs..tsk tsk..
hmm so i guess i'm finally in contact with my pri sch mates..i guess its kinda like i was dreading this time(when i return to kl) to come cuz i lost all contacts with my pri sch mates so i am kinda like friendless in this city except for the scholars la..and so i was like trying to contact them thru like friendster and stuff..so ya now i'm in this like circle thing they have to keep in touch with each other so ya...but i still feel quite weird..cuz they like meet up regularly or at least once a yr and i havnt seen any of them for like six yrs alr..except for yao zu who i met when i came back fr bangkok..
oh well i have to get back to the dreaded essays i have to write...one piece of advice to all you guys out there on uni apps...decide where you wanna apply to early and wat u wanna do and start thinking of wta u wanna write in your essays..although last minute work sure works miracles for me,but its a terrible process to go thru...i am a guo lai ren..trust me..

lalala the bloody thingy is screwed up...so i guess nobody will be reading this entry for some time..hmmm mb i shd blog into the thing str...is it how it's done?cuz i have no idea..
realise i like talking to myself?
yup i do..this is my every morning activity..since i can't sleep till likle lunch time or something,so i wake up and play games or go online or try to make my entries appear on the bloody thing..
so this morning,i was woken up...by the incessant beeping of my sis' phone...its so early tt none of us could hear the thing..anyway...then i woke up later to my mum asking me to give her my phone sim card...reason: she's going to s'pore..i bet she made the decision late last night..as some of u know,she goes down quite regularly when i was still there,cuz of her business thingy thingy..
so ya she's going down...topic's closed
topic no.2: the chaos harry and joyce made last night...
background info:harry was supposed to fetch joyce to somewhere..i dunno where and he asked her to get ready by some time la..then she was supposed to pack her stuff and wait for him but she wasn't done when he arrived..
story: so they started screaming at each other..he said she should have known tt she will take a long time and so she shd get started earlier..she said tt since he told her then she's alr been getting ready...so ya..it's like watching a tennis match and it goes poing,poing,poing back and forth..so irritating..and he just sits down there and complain abt how late she is and how she just always takes her own sweet time and yadaa yadaa yadaa...and refuses to help her pack!!!so being the kind me,i helped her pack so tt she'll be faster and harry will talk less..and of course,when they asked my opinion, i just kept my mouth shout,refusing to be dragged into a stupid argument such as this..and of course she also got back at him...but i still feel like banging harry over the head...mb cuz i have natural inclination to be symphathetic towards women but still?!he was acting like such a jerk..ok so enough about them..
i quite happy now..got quite a lot of my songs back and songs i dint have before..hee..
anyway, i see some similarities in some people that it's starting to get quite frightening..i mean,they share the same name and they act alike,has the same kinda brain,erm thoughts i mean,or mb minds..anyway,same prniciples..and stuff i really wonder whether god accidentally duplicated them...it's really really scary..mb i shd intro them to one another..but mb like ppl will repel each other..but its still really freaky..
but all in all,quite amusing..just that one is older than the other, taller than the other,has better hair than the other,more meat than the other and less vulgar than the other..haha

its already wednesday!!!i'm so doomed...somebody please kindly tell me how the hell am i supposed to write about why i chose wat i chose to study and wat interest me about my intended discipline when i don't even KNOW wat the hell i am going to study?it just surpasses the capacity of my mind right now..and i am on a very very tight deadline here...ugh..idiots..they call it short answer and then indirectly tell u that u are advised to write an essay instead by the line,"please limit your response to less than 850 words." and the essay(the official one we have to write) is limited to 250 to 500 words..which is(you MUST agree with me)significantly less than 850..and guess wat?as short answered questions go,its usually more than one and guess how many they have?four!!!stupid idiots *#@$^!!!!
alright anybody who is sick and tired of my complaining is barred from reading my blog ever again because:
1.i created this blog so that i have a place to complain all i want and my poor friends in real life will not have to suffer my constant complaining.
2.just because i say somethings here doesn't mean i will say them in real life..
3.do not take everything u read at the surface..please use you brain,use your brain,use you BRAIN ah!
4.i can't think of anything else logical to say.but this is my blog and i can say wat i wanna say and if u're not happy with that u can go screw yourself..nobody forced u to read my blog anyway..
to nice people who read my blog frequently or are just plain nice people,i apologise for the language used...to those who are so innocent,please just go home and forget about wat i just said..bye bye..

hmmm me am back again...heh kept to my word right?actually i dint realise until i read the previous entry...now i'm not so bored anymore cuz my cousin's wedding is coming up and have to take care of my baby cousins..not so baby anymore but then they are the youngeest in the whole family..but still soooo cute!!!oh my if u guys saw them i'm sure u'll say that too./..they are just so adorable..yum!!haha then i have to pei my mum and my auntie to go look for dresses and stuff like that..then i am going to take up yoga!!haha finally found somebody to go with me..yay!!oh and i am currently playing tennis too..haha it's not too bad..havnt suffered any aches..amazing right?i'm rather surprised myself..
and i met kenny..big kenny from ajc,rib,the kl guy?haha yup met him in this talk thing for ANU..then one of the girls there supposedly rejected the asean scholarship cuz of SARS then she also happen to have gone for the intro weekend..the one that my sis did not tell me abt..then i went for the expedition briefing yesterday..then jie's sec is adrian..haha he acts like linus..quite funny..very very lame person..very scary though and he could tell i was the sister haha but i think now everybody in raleigh except for joe quah knows already la...my sis say if the older members knows tt i'm their sis then i'll kena bullied like shit..but so far so good la..
but the thing is i dunnop whether i can go for expidition..cuz it's on 15 march..good tt it shd be after results are out but i will have to apply for uni and scholarships too..so i dunno whether i shd go or not./.and if i wanna go,i'd better start fundrasing soon...so all you people out there who read this,have to contribute a bit hor..haha if you wanna know how,can email me...*smiles*
oh then the other night,my dad met mun waei at his office..haha i dint know she was part of the crazy company!!haha do not get me wrong..but i too lazy to explain so just do not assume anything after u read this paragrpah..
oh and happy happy me have downloaded a few phantoms songs..but not as shiok la..haha but still happy..
oh well by this time tomorrow, mun,chii, huong and vi will be on their way traveling ard vietnam backpacking supposedly..so fun but my mummy dun let me go...
oh and for those who doesn't know,adrian's down with chicken pox..haha (i invite all of you out there to laugh along with me..)
oh well well,i have to go..so many people making so much noise..how to think?(i'm sure u can tell i' not using my brain very much now)ya.. so i shall leave you guys here..oh and plaese come online more often or mail me snail mail alsp can...
my add is..

B-6-3, Kenanga Point,
11, Jln Gelugor,
55200 Kuala Lumpur,
Malaysia..

hee..so ya..ta ta..if you guys are sick of listening to all i ask of you alr also can tell me to change the song..oh and since i'm kinda on the downloading songs mood now,please recommend some songs that are nice..i welcome all languages and all genres except for techno..oh and songs old and new are welcome to...thanks you ladies and gentleman,have a great day ahead..*takes a bow and leaves the stage*

i watched meet the fockers with mun the other day..tuesday i think..it's hilarious..i highly recommend it to anyone out there who needs a laugh..esp ppl who are filled with spite..
anyway,it's a really small world..i went for this uni thingy and guess who i met?big kenny..from RIB..haha i guess it's a blessing in disguise for him cuz ANU is definitely better than NUS(sorry guys,i am a true blue Malaysian..)and the place is great..it's a capital but not too hectic..if i can get the bloody scholarship that is..if not,u guys with your hearts set on going to NUS will probably see me there next year..but pray hard we don't..
err as u guys prob can see,i'm still obsessed with phantom..haha..and it just got worst..hmm a bit no link alr..darn i just broke my don't-blog-so-much promise..oh well must keep to my word..be back mb next mon?will keep u guys updated..for my sake..

notice i'm blogging very frequently?
says something...i'm bored..mb tt's y i'm going crazy..not tt i got nothing to do...but i've got nothing i wanna do...makes sense?good...
i really shouldn't blog so frequently..shall try to resist....
get on with my life...but then again,wat life?

i went to help with the tsunami relief thingy in St John's cathedral on monday nite..hmmm helped then sort out the donated stuff into boxes and label them..then the container came and we had to help load it up to the container..did so much lifting..haha training my muscles...and it's aching like dunno-wat now..ya...went there at like 10+pm..cuz my sis heard it over the 10 o clock news on the radio..then i went w my mum..met some raleigh ppl there..
so sian so many things to do yet i dunno wat to do..it's like losing a direction in life..haha when we're in sch,we have no choice..now i dunno wat i wanna do also...and i also wanna do everything..hee..go sky diving or scuba diving..hey,wat's w me and diving...nvm...me rambling now...
and i'm so musically deprived..my sis reformatted the comp and all my songs are wiped out..and i also dun have my josh groban songs alr..bleah...i dunno where to download my songs..can't even go to pasar malam to get pirated ones..ugh...and i am alr sick of listening to myself sing..haha and i lost my love actually cd!!so sad..sob..then my discman konked...so i cant even play my other cds...bleah...sad..sad...
i think i going crazy alr...ugh...

the first day of school....and i do not have to go...hmmm such a weird feeling..it's like i dun have to go to school anymore...for the moment at least...nostalgic and happy..
but i still woke up early..wanted to go jogging w me dad this morning cuz i ate so much over the last i dunno,since i came back,tt i feel 4 mths pregnant...haha so ya...supposed to run...oh while we are at the topic of eating,let me talk a bit abt my trip to pahang...
to attend this pretty jie jie punya wedding...haha so ya it's a wedding dinner...so obviously we got ten course chinese dinner...results:2 mths pregnant...then e next day,guess wat we have for breakfast/lunch?ans:6 course chinese meal plus a bowl of soup...results:add another month of pregnancy(hmmm sentence structure very wrong here..but who cares??me no writing essays anymore..yay!!)then wat's for lunch/tea?ans:lots and lots of durians and mangosteens and rambutans and langsats and bananas...and i mean a lot!!!mark my words it's a gigantic pile of fruits we supposed to finish...can amount to a mini mountain a kin to those ard us...(hint:we in the mountains,you see)..grand total:4 mths pregnant...it toook a lot of eating to accomplish tt...haha be proud of me...
ok so ya...so much eating,not considering my trip to bangkok before that resulted in me being at least 2 mths pregnant and then the subsequent dinners and parties i went...now u understd when i said my hols actually just started...cuz my mum's been dragging me(and my siblings) around to all sorts of places to eat...haha nv got time for myself yet..was so busy..
ok yes,back to the topic...sorry for digressing so many times..haha ok so was supposed to go for a run to try to return a bit of my sense of healthiness(i was feeling terribly sluggish and pregnant!!haha) so i left w my dad early in the morning,send my bro to sch and then we headed for the lake garden...we reached the park then started to walk...hmmm, i was thinking, mb its for warming up...so i dint say anything...then aft some time we have walked some distance,i asked:we not doing stretching?then he said walk one round first...then he said must warm up cuz the last time he was here for an hour and in the end whole body ached..so i just followed his pace lo...i'll die if i run for an hour la!!half an hour i half dead alr!!haha..anw so i just walked la...then he went into this patch os grass...started stretching...aft tt,i was all ready to run!!
but we started walking, then we made pit stops all ard the park doing various exercises and stretches...then we have nearly completed one round...so i tot we going to run alr...then he climbed up the stairs leading to the unmistakable exit..i was horrified,no la just exaggerating...but still i was supposed to run!!haha so in the end,i woke up so early for nothing,got scolded for nothing and still feeling pregnant...bleah...
haha but i came back and slept till 1pm...haha happy happy

and for the sake of pig,i shall tell a bit abt my bus incident..
aft i left e cab,then walk to the checkpoint lo...crossed the customs,then waited at the bottom of e escalator while craning my neck to see if the bus appears...but there's no jam,no queue so it's impossible for the bus to be behind..ya..and believe me,i have never seen soooo many blue buses in my whole life!!!bloody hell...
so i called...then they said tt the bus took tuas link...so i was stranded there..haha so i just jumped on the 170 bus to larkin lo...then took to larkin and go buy ticket lo...then got home lo...
haha i got home e same time i wld hav if i dint miss e stupid bus
oh and actually i think it is good tt i ended up in first link instead..cuz 2nd link sure no jam...and i wld definitely have missed it there and its so far fr larkin...and i dun think got bus there to larkin..so ya...good la i guess..haha