btw, this day is the day our younger counterparts receive their O's results...hmmm wonder if they coined it "the small O"...kekeke me am evil...hiak hiak hiak...

btw,this day is the day our younger counterparts receive their O's....wonder if their are coined the term "the small o"...hehehe me am evil...hiak hiak hiak...

the big A...the bIG A...wats up? i ask...wat's the big deal....surprisingly, my dear friends out there..this maniac down here has been anasthesized...so she has no feeling for "the BIG A" watsoever...ya rite...if u see me crying on the day the results' out, u'll know y...hmmm actually i dun think u'll know since i dun think i'll know...haha ok so much for tt...
me not frustrated abt the results(yet!!)..but abt the day the results will be out...u see, i will have to,(i) call my aunt tell her tt i'll be staying over for how many days, when to when, etc....(ii)buy bus tickets!!!!highly important..and somemore this period tickets in quite high demands too...so if i have to buy it on the day or the day before,chancers are i'll have to walk all the way down to singapore..(nola,not tt bad..just joking)..(iii)pack...me hates packing...even if its only for a coupla days...ya...and usually when i pack in a rush,i'll sure forget stuff tt are highly impt...(iv)call up my friends...the scheduled meetings...only this time i think it'll be worst than when i was leaving...haha meeting up with friends, analogy-ed to going to work...anyway, that's just some stuff....but if the sure fire news from doris lee comes only the day before(and she dared ask is it enough time!!),i 'd rather go with the speculations...
only tt there are so many dates floating ard out there...personally i think it'll be out on monday 7...but like weizhen said..practically everybody will be down to get the results o friday and u wanna go down 2 wks later?jokes...and jokers...

as evidence of my boredom,now tt the interview is over and i'm just waiting for the next upcoming thing,and our constant guessing game of when our a's results will be out, i just took an IQ test...haha and guess wat?my IQ score is 136..and...

Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

well...at least tt's a booster for my deflated ego as i think i did really badly for the bloody interview...haha shallowness of it all...

btw,i have rekindled my interest for comics again..except this time(since i have no access to anything!!) i'm just looking at pics from the manga series...i love CLAMP's work..its so beautiful...and my tops will be Sakura and X...hehe...i like Clover too...but sadly they stopped the series without ever finishing it cuz its not very popular..but i love it...oh welll that's beside the point now...

am still blinded...am i?i dunno..really have no idea..or shall i allow myself a little hope...or is tt tiny amount alr too much...a tiny little slit will let everything thru...it's like a dam...a tiny hole will break the whole thing cuz the pressure will be greater..and tt tiny amount will be enough to build my dream castle on a cloud..and a breath of negativity will demolish it...so i guess ya i definitely am still blinded.... ... time to put on my shades...
am also trying very hard not to see things thru rose-tinted glasses...but it does lend a good view to things around me eh?its like mists in the morns that you try to grasp but u only get wisps of nothing...illusions ya?definitely...ok...i shan't think so much crap..
anw, GONG XI FA CAI..... .... ... me happy cuz this yr got a lot of ang paus..cuz every year my ang pau collection periods are also cut short..sobs...hehehe...
and i feel so bloody old!!!!!oh my...i can't take it anymore...now i look at uniformed students and feel so bloody old!!!!!and my cousin's newly married wife is just 25!!she's supposed to be much older than me..not only 2 yrs older than my sis...oh my....to be face with one's age or mortality is the cruelest thing...
like they say...u spent most of your life trying to fend off middle age and suddenly you realise u are alr deep in the middle of it...argh...
and the bloody sound card is not working...so i can't hear my mp3s....sob...it's my only entertainment...sobs....
and y is everybody in uk????why??!!!i wanna go there too..i wanna go i wana go I WANNNNNAAAA GGGOOOOOO!!!!....hmph but poor me gotta forgo tt cuz it's bloody expensive!!!!i love that place..i always wanted uk...actually i never knew i'd be applying to us until i applied.....ugh!!!!!save me......
oh my mum asked us: when are you going to get bfs??haha cuz my sis and i also dun have...hahaha we did laugh our heads off though..
urgh...should i should i not?tt's the qn...

i just read a couple of blogs...talking abt childhood traumas...tt how an event or something tt somebody said had scarred you for life..or how ur silence had encouraged somethings..or how the desperado in you continued to push you towards those hypocrites tt you despised just because they are popular and you long to belong..normally you'd like to think that u are the worst..you have suffered the most and you deserve to be loved more and pitied more...and you think you are the only one who have suffered,you are wrong, dead wrong..ther are ppl out there who have gone thru the things you had and have suffered similarly...ok i'm not trying to 'scold' ppl out ther for being selfish cuz... .... .... .... oh well...i wanted to say tt it has led me to think abt some stuff..and i have lost my train of thought while talking to munyin about rock climbing...can't blame me tt i was excited tt i forgot wat i wanted to say...and anw,"no one means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean, for words are slippery and thought is viscous."- Henry Adams...

i wanted to talk about longevity, wanted to ask whether any of u know that when u add pepsi ice and pepsi fire together, u'll get a grey drink instead of the logical purple?i've been thinking too much again..
have you ever felt like ,when u were a kid again, just kena scolded or something and u'd wished tt u'll disappear or u feel really dimished?and have u ever had felt that you would suddenly feel like that again just because somebody said something or somebody did (duh!)something tt suddenly transports you to years past and u feel like finding a hole to crawl into...or more like its like picking at a wound that you thought have long healed..i never knew i will feel like that again..and at something totally not solid....haha so ridiculous..i never thought tt something so small can affect me that way..maybe tt's y i dreaded this..its like an infected wound that will just get all inflamed again at just a tiny prick!!shan't talk abt this anymore..

longevity....why do ppl wanna live for so many years??i mean it's not like the world is all at peace and there are so many weird diseases coming up...from kawasaki to the most recent SARS...and they havnt even found a cure for cancer yet..and with old age comes many many other age related diseases like rheumatism and osteoporosis..and even then, it's starting to affect ppl younger and younger(eng a bit weird but heck...) .. i mean so many ppl are so obsessed with longevity..or even immortality....the earliest i know being the chinese king in the chang-er myth(chang-er drank the king's elixir of life and floated away to the moon..)..then there is qin shi huang...and even the voldemort in harry potter wants it...(note: all things said here is without any research basis so if you disagree,just erase this entry from your memory...or u can contact me but i doubt i'll be amending anything)....oh well as for me, i've always wanted to live until the age of 65..haha y 65 i dunno...but perp promised to raid my 65th b'day and finally be able to murder me after 46 years of keeping the grudge..haha jokes of course...tt is of course if i do not die of heart attack first when i sky dive at the age of 55..hahahahahahaha

oh well..good news..i passed my undang test...then had very yummy lunch today at my dad's office(nearby)..and then had crash course before my amali..which they are not going to conduct...so basically 5 hours of compulsory theory became 3 and 1/2 hrs and then after passed got 6 hrs of theory before can mohon L license..supposed 3 hrs theory and 3 hrs amali..but they did the 3 hrs theory in 2+ hrs with a 25 min break in between!!!and i just heard crap...crap crap and more crap...and the egoistic 'penceramah' is a big fat male chauvinistic PIG!!!he kept putting the girls down and saying that the girls cant drive or stupid or wateva..and if he'd bother to look around, he'd see that whenever he made any comments about gender, the six girls out of seven people in the class will turn, look at each other and roll their eyes...insensitive and egoistic and brainless to the mix...
ok...the tv is occupying my mind rite now...so i have alr forgotten wat i wanted to say..oh well...there's so many things i wanna watch..heh...rite now, unfortunately, i live for my daily dose of tvb serials..sad case?pity me?dun...it's time i catch up to wat i've been missing out these past six years and this is one of those i missed most....mb cuz its symbolic of domestic living..ok before i start turning philosophical again,

ciao...