i was wrong..rem i said i'll cry no matter the results?i just realise tt i cldn't cry...not in front of mrs goh(who said something nasty).wats up w me and my form teachers?hmmm jaq yip the b***h said i dun deserve my good results in sec4 and now this?although in a way i dislike mrs goh more now cuz she is evil...i mean who goes ard,i told you so....at least jaq yip gave me something to hate easily...
anw,so this is it...rem our philo of if it doesn't hit you by next year it'll never hit?well,i've been hit..a lot of times...and now i'm down as a bloodied casualty...nothing can really save me and tt's really depressing...
so i figured its really not tt hard to keep up pretenses...although like now,i'll constantly feel tt lump in my throat and not say much for fear my eyes will spill and destroy my veil of happiness...before this,the sky has been the limit...fallen grace...
and i went back to sch feeling really weird tt day...we were sitting beside each other but couldn't talk...its sad cuz we were quite close before this and not we can barely talk to each other...but then again,it's been more than 3 mths...mb wat its wat happened at the end?haha i dunno...either way..there's only 2 possibility.either he's fallen or he's bolted..but then again,not everybody cld stomach my advice..haha
then there's chan and perps who i'm very happy for...they did so well...ok tt kinda applies to perps...but i'm also soooo happy i got to meet them...haha dint realise how much i missed them until i saw them again...haha perps is turning more and more matured by the moment i'm starting to feel like a kid beside her...only my height is my saving grace..and chan..haha happily ever after...when she and him not playing break up tt is...haha i hope u read this...anw,its been a wonderful weekend all in all cuz it definitely strengthened our friendship and i'm very happy abt tt...anw,i have a story to tell....

Rain and Caramel are very good friends.they were in the same class and they got really close during the last yr of sch. caramel is not local...and rain has had a depressing childhood.so even though their friendship started to grow and grow into something beyond friendship,both of them were unwilling to acknowledge it.caramel scared it'll never get them anywhere cuz she may be leaving forever and rain feared tt his past has scarred him for life and thus render him unable to love caramel the way she deserves it...so fear gripped them and they passed the ast yr together with the excuse "we know too much shit abt each other to get attached"...but rain's desire of wanting caramel to continue being part of his life is so strong tt he finally asked her...and caramel agreed...not to the surprise of those who knew...in denial as usual...haha
so they lived happily for weeks...going out,doing things tt make them a couple..(this story is starting to become crappy..shall not let my imagination run too much...hahah)but because of rain's past..he is very insecure...he fears tt one day caramel will leave him either to go else where to continue her studies or just tt she raelise she doesn't really love him tt much anw...and caramel...has not much fears cuz she knows how much he loves her and she has always been the strong headed one...but rain being as he is,was unconvinced tt caramel loves him as much as he does her..and tt increased his fears...(ok i think i'm starting to repat myself)..so he decided to cut it first..to keep his heart safe and not laid as barely as it had been...he doesn't really trust tt caramel will keep it safe...caramel on the other hand,has feared tt rain will see things in his skewed perpective and break it with her...so caramel decided to break it first...but they just did things in their little world...they did not step into the oter's shoes to see how the other felt...they were convinced tt they were doing the right things...but they dint realise how their one-sided decision hurt the other...but there is no blaming one another for there are just too many factor at work here and one thing led to another...and after they finally talked it out(cuz they still love each other very much and cldn't bare to leave each other.), they realise tt actually it is alright....and now they are happily ever after....
this story is purely a fiction of my imagination....but there's a lesson to be learnt here...do not be so narraw minded..u'll most proib end up hurting more than u wanted to save...and i hate those p[pl who does things in their own perpective and think they are so bloody noble..haha okla...enough abt this...this is getting boring....so has today's entry compensated foir the lack of news for these days?hehe