it's juz tt seriously.. u nv seem down to me. u always seem sure despite being sleepy and all. n u always seem so happy to me..

i have no idea y i'm crying...every single thing just seems to trigger those tear ducts...i hate being this way...even when i had to let something go i wasn't like this...i have never cried so badly in my whole life...even when i had to silently suffer those yrs tt were to carve my being...me, a person who can so proudly say tt for the last 6 yrs, she has cried less than the number of fingers on her hands...and it just makes me laugh tt i'm e one crying but at the same time comforting her..tg nobody's home...i dint even cry when my grandad passed away...i have to face up to it man...but it hurts..it really really hurts...rips up my heart...i've always known tt if i ask,there'll be somebody out there to hold me...but i'vce always been unwilling to give my self up...

thanks perps...and cal...for your trust and faith in me....thanks for the support...just for somebody to talk to...and ears too...hah...
btw,part of why i'm weeping my soul out are joys of tears for having such wonderful friends and am just touched....

love you guys...take care and all the best!!!! *showers of kisses and a huge bear hug*