i finally got the ,music playing...but somehow its a bit weird ya?haha cuz i cant find it so i uploaded it into their server...
anyway...i think the song is very meaningful and wat the lyrics say..i really wish to do...i can't tell whether i'm alr at that stage...i dun think so...but i really hope that after this expedition, i will have moved on and be ready to fly...
it's like this past 6 years was the story of my life...sadly...but it was where i learnt to stand on my two feet...still a little unstable nonetheless...and the past 3 years have been the constant erosion of my spirit...my cheerfulness...my personality...and a stocking up of my craziness...i hope that's not a sign...haha but after so long, i feel really tired...like some 50 year old guy waiting for retirement...like washed out...and hung to dry...and its time for me to find myself again...to search for the enthusiam and inject some life back into my soul....dun take this so seriously k..i'm not as emotionally dehydrated as it sounds here...haha but it kinda portrays wat i wanna say and how i feel...and i hope that this expedition will be the answer to all my doubts and err...everything la...haha can't find words...

ok now enough abt the song...i just bought my rucksack yesterday..haha and i'm so happy...primarily cuz i got deuter and the correct size and fit and at a quite ok price...but also cuz, e auntie that i finally boought it from is so nice to us that i dint mind at all paying the extra 10 bucks although we did get a slim fit and 5 litres more...haha the first auntie so evil..she say u go to the auntie downstairs and she gave u this price for this bag...so she gave us same price but for a smaller bag...then we were so irritated with her like u must buy from me!!!then we say we need to buy something else first then she said when u leave and come back, u wont get same price..and i was thinking, wat kinda business are u trying to make?like we have to buy from u...she say she sell cheapest in whole malaysia...shove it up ur *** man...wat load of rubbish...so we just cut her off and walk out of the shop..leaaving her screaming for us to come back...

the moment is here...i'm waiting for the page to load...i just assumed i wont get it...cuz i know its quite impossible...but there's always that little sliver of hope embedded in me...its like a piece of glass glinting in the sun...and to take it out will cause blood shed...
ok so ya...the damage is done... right now its out..but there's no blood yet..and i hope the wound will heal fast..hopefully it wouldn't turn into those sorta wound that will slowly turn red then bleed....please pray for my fast recovery...