i've got my laptop alr...so happy...and met yee ma last night.went to her son's new restaurant for dinner..was supposed to watch mr and mrs smith after that but dint get to cuz min havnt finish homework yet...sheesh...
i shd stop myself from thinking tt i'm settling for second best..it's gonna kill me...always holding out just in case i get the scholarship for nus...it's not going to happen and i'll have to face it...i'll just ruin my time in ntu and i'll have a terrible time at ntu if i keep thinking tt i could be else where having more fun..it's just like this in jc...but then tt was partially my fault...and this is partially my mom's fault cuz she's the one who keep asking me to wait out for nus..mb i don't want to cuz i know i'll end up like that..mb i was just too lazy..but now the seed of that devilish thought has already been planted in my head and i'm suffering because of it...snap out of it!!*slap slap*

now it's just a matter of convincing myself...

another thing...io have no idea why i'm taking mechanical engin...i'm really starting to worry..will i hate it so much?will i like it?will i turn into those seniors of mine who are soooo miserable doing wat they don't like?ooh oh...i think i'll just have to pray to God that i will like my major....pray for me as well...