its a happy happy day...very relaxing..just slacking ard, cleaning the room, washing my clothes and packing up my place..and everything is so neat and tidy and clean...hee..love it to bits!!to was in such a good mood both of us decided to dress up and go out for dinner...just the two of us, dun need to worry abt waiting for other ppl or meeting up with them or headache how to meet u with them cuz they stay in e bloody far away hall..haha so me and chii went to west mall for dinner...then just walked a bit then came back...quite hilarious but it felt good all the same...

why am i taking engin?i dunno...mainly cuz i dunno wat i wanna do and i have always had an affinity for sciences and so i decided to take that..its like they say, u will be able to face a known fear no matter how daunting, but u cant face an unknown fear..so its something like that for me...
i dun dare to go and do wat i wanna do, ie finance and banking.its all too new for me..and in a sense i guess i was afraid to find myself floundering again in the deep end like i was when i just came after first 3 mths.so ya there it goes...dun ask me again...

then there's the feeling of unpreparedness that i'm feeling rite now..like i dunno wat to expect...so i guess i shd talk to my seniors more...yup i definitelly shd do tt...but never came around to doing that.and its like.. i must study hard...cuz i am really feeling it now...family responsibilities resting on my shoulders..its like when i was younger, i wanted to know..but now tt i'm older and my mum wants to let me know, i dun want to!but i know she needs somebody to talk to sometimes who isn't my dad or my sis.its just hard to say..
so..why am i in ntu?because i need the scholarship and only ntu gave it to me.so there...all questions solved...feeling muc lighter now... telling half truths or non-truthshas nv been my forte nor something i like to do..ok...enough of crap/..


haha sleep with a smile on my face tonight..