struck by sudden wave of homesickness

i miss home..mb cuz i havnt been home for such a long time and then i was home for 6 mths..and now im back here on my own again and its just making wish i could go back to the previous life style...she misses me too..when i was home i just sat ard..when she needed to go some places i just followed her..basically i was my mum's companion..she regretted letting me leave home so early and cuz those years were my growing years and they shaped and moulded me into who and wat i am now.. i am proud to say tt even without my mum's expert hands, i turned out alrite withuot much flaw..i just want her to feel that she hasnt wasted her time with me all these years and that her fears that i'll be not close to home and everything are unfounded..though i do give her enough heartaches and headaches to last two lifetimes..this is just my way of giving part of my life that she had missed out..to reassure her that she still has a place in my heart..action speaks louder than words..just my way of telling her "i love you"..
another always rarely mentioned, very important person in my life is my sister..she was my mum when mum wasn't here.. and we had to live alone..she looked after me though i was rebelling..(cant blame me, blame the hormones..lolz)..she picked up after me..at the same time, she struggled to keep her own things in order..and i couldnt help her..when she was troubled i could only watch her cry..but when i was crying she cried with me..when i was down she pulled me up..there are no words to describe wat had went on..not enough words to tell her how thankful i am for her, not enough thank yous to show my gratitude..(starting to get poetic..)all i can say is, god bless you, and me too cuz i have u..with strength, u'll overcome this and we're all by your side..

oh how i miss home...